10 years later:))

 Hi

Yeah its been 10 years since i made my last blog.

So let’s see what’s changed actually well first of all, I started my own business and starting from 2013. I do a lot of business stuff I started a partnership company about the Events with partners and actually worked with them for almost 10 years then we break up.

Oh, that was hard-working years full of things going on full of joy, full of hard times, full of new experiences, making a lot of new friends, even lovers ha ha, and opportunities.

Starting from 2022 I started investment company. That was new for me for now I guess was right. So we’ll see what happens. See you soon.

Money vs Time

Having money, but not  having time.Having time but not having money enough. Strange things  happening.

Today i was reading the post i did a year ago on Valentines day.I wrote-"no going out, no presents, noting special:( Why?-hard times in financially:)

So this year, had  money, but didn't had time. And i think ..that's the difference. If i cant manage my time, whats the objective?

SO i decided to quit the job i had, as an executive director, and to start managing my time in my own business.

Its time to start  i guess. It`s Time....

Look up

A big changes have been made till the last time i wrote a note . I changed my job, started to feel " that way" :) .
Started to notice that spiritually I have Some issues with myself. like feeling that all i have is enough for me but still not the exactly what i desire for myself.
The way of living is not the best way you would like to live with. Maybe i m wrong but i feel what i i say now.
Freedom , freedom .... I need freedom meanwhile i know that it can destroy me .
What do i do now? --- drinking Dirty Martini in Speakeasy Bar :)

So happy

I m so happy today, i finally could fell the happiness and see the joy in tve eyes of my parents.
I said that i get a new offer of a new job and i said that i will say yes. I guess its the start of new life . I m happy too :)

No one to be there

Having a talk for a while and not talked About what you were ready to talk . Feeling the pain inside that ppl have changed and you changed too with them. Wanna open your heart to a friend or anyone and you found that they are not ready or I d say not willing to hear that. I guess now I feel that I m really lonely. No one want this shit any more .
Where are they? What do they do? Why I m waiting for them?
Wanna change all , ALL!!!
Kids , only kids make me alive. They give me the power. I lost the peace I had by myself and I can't find it. I m doing my best but....
Waiting for the future while he is passing by day by day:(

Thoughts...

So good to realize that the whole way of becoming of you us the job that you did by yourself.As time goes by you became more stronger, but in other hand sometimes weaker too. You are becoming more ready for loosing somethings that you ll never do earlier. The way of living?? Maybe...

Some thoughts that can be not the best ones, but you cant deny too. Dont know for sure but maybe the lonely people are sometimes more happy. The freedom of having all the world inside of you and not sharing it with another person....is this the happiness? Do we always have to share all...our area, thoughts,things we used to love, even Facebook links??? What if we keep this all inside of us and try to feel ourselves from inside , from the deepest corners of our personality? Are we afraid to see the true picture of us? What if we like what we ll see? Maybe the person inside of us, sitting in the dark corners of ourselves, is better than we are.
Wanna see myself from inside. Maybe in this case the life will be changed in all his ways. And i ll feel the full of myself.

Can't find still

What I can't find is the equality between what I have and what I want from life. But I guess there is always a place left for hardworking and reaching for goals, as it all is a connected to each other. Does that mean that if I ll not work hard now I ll have that feeling for the rest of my life? Maybe yes! No . No I dont want that , I know I ll do my best to make it happen , I just need to be more concentrated on what I m doing and what I will do in future. Let that be so.