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A big changes have been made till the last time i wrote a note . I changed my job, started to feel " that way" :) .
Started to notice that spiritually I have Some issues with myself. like feeling that all i have is enough for me but still not the exactly what i desire for myself.
The way of living is not the best way you would like to live with. Maybe i m wrong but i feel what i i say now.
Freedom , freedom .... I need freedom meanwhile i know that it can destroy me .
What do i do now? --- drinking Dirty Martini in Speakeasy Bar :)